Never Goodbye but Farewell

I do not know what got into me. Suddenly there is this rush of pain in my heart just seeing your face. Who shall hug me when I am crying because of some emo telenovela? Who will endure my madness over anime and other craziness? Who will I call when I am afraid of "Sadako" and "One Missed Call" ghosts? Who will accompany me to do eating spree? My tears are so shallow, they got mind of their own. I have not come to hate it. In fact, it is somehow a part of me and part of my existence. But now why? Why can't these tears just flow out and be gone into mute's bitter lips? Why should I endure this pain as if I am alone? This is so un-ME.

Although I know that you will be gone for a year, I just know that deep in my heart that no matter how long or how far you are, the only one person who is taking my heart with him will be you. No more buts, no more what ifs instead I will just wait till I see the light in your face again. I will miss you.

This is never goodbye but farewell.

Promises

This is for someone I have loved for all these three years..

Promises today and promises tomorrow

We don't know that we can face our sorrow

It costs a lot of pain you know

That is why I'll never let you go.

Your promises are my only hope

Without them perhaps I could never cope

However, painful it is to know that things has to be done

I will wait till the next time I will see your face again.

Promises are likely made to be broken

In every heart it is softly spoken

But when time comes of hurtin'

Promises are stains that may cause us pain.

However, do not fret about things like that

No matter how painful it is to know that fact

I will never ever once forget

We made a promise to each other to be together...

even till life after death.

Mastering the Art of Music

Most of us have not yet discovered our hidden romance with music and making it. Personally, playing guitar has only been my past time but never really had any passion regarding it. I tried composing one or two songs but it seems to be just a product of illusion and mediocrity. There is no real thing in every single one of them. There just no soul in those music. I stand in awe for people who make music as easily as eating. Perhaps, I just did not take it too personally either that or the fact that I really do not have music inclination at all.

But here let us talk about some pointers that I realize just by looking back in my experience trying to get in tune with music. We will go through them one by one.

I should have the ability to read music per se. That is the number one trick or perhaps one stair up geared towards mastering music which I really cannot say I have all this time. But if you count being able to read chords as part of it then perhaps I have the skill to know it, although I might just need time. Guitar is my favorite instrument of all and the basic foundation of learning it should be having the ability to read music.

I should learn the techniques on how to play guitar, that as much as the ability to read music is very much essential in mastering the art of music. I watched many guitarists who have queer and unique techniques in order for them to go through a series of chords without actually breaking the sound for which I have not yet mastered until now. I have really not been able to learn techniques on exactly how I can continue playing chords in different frets without breaking them.

I should learn how to learn to play individual notes as well as combining them to produce chords. I know specifically how to play chords but I do not know how to individually play the notes and worst, I do not even know how to group them to produce the sound. I know it is funny but sometimes, when you are serious to learn something, you need to be learning the details and go into information you can get about the subject. Otherwise, it is not complete learning at all.

I should get to know my guitar well in order for us to get along with each other like it being a part of me and me, being a part of it. However, this is something that I have not done when I was learning how to play the guitar because basically I learned playing the instrument using someone else’s guitar and not my own. So basically I have not established a time or something to get us to know each other. Because of this reason, I can say that I have yet to get my own guitar before I can actually go master the music.

Basketball Olympics Correspondent

I did not know when I started really putting passion on writing about sports until I started writing about Beijing Olympics Basketball update. I actually had so much fun going on while watching the game and writing about it afterwards. It is not about the money that I am talking about but well it could be a part of it because I wouldn't have started writing about basketball had not been about the Olympics.

Since the Olympics started, I have so much been going through including studying how to be a correspondent and how to write sports news. Well, I had been a news writer once in my University days but that is not actually a formal writing spree that I had been. It was only the University publication where I might just be wanting to be part of.

But lately, it was so much different. Writing articles about anything has just become a habit, although of course most of the time I am not earning anything from it. But well, it is a start. I just love writing. I love when words just flow on my head and comes alive on paper like some image.

This has all been for the of writing.

My Own Sense of Art

Some poems i compose are simply a simple expression of my feelings, thoughts and ideas. It does not necessarily mean I have experienced it or whatever. I just feel like sharing some things. Well here is one:

Make Friends with Shadows

i have longed to feel your touch, to see your smile
and make my wait and life seem worth the while
i longed to talk to you and see you laugh
to make my world survive the tough.

it seems a little crazy to want something like this
to watch while dancing not knowing what to feel
it seems like I'm making friends with shadows
i see you but you'd go away if i ever get near.

I, to be blamed; I, to be laughed at
wishing and hoping you'd feel the same for me
I, to be looked down, to be forgotten
my existence for you will never be significant.

but even then i still smile at the thought
that perhaps even just once I've made a difference
that maybe i had made your life colorful
with my craziness, silliness and most of all
the undying memory i had with you.

And just like that I have shared my deepest thoughts. Something that I haven't done for so long. Something that I always ignore; the other side of me.

How I Landed in My Full-Time Work Online

I am just a housewife. Although I completed Bachelor of Science in Medical Technology and passed the consequent Licensure Examination, I do not feel like pursuing that career. I find it better to stay at home and take care of my kids. I started browsing websites that offer home based job vacancy. Primarily, I had experience with medical transcription however that did not last for long because of stress of the work.

I hopped in from one site to another like bestjobs.ph and sulit.com.ph. I had my first job as home based telemarketer or most commonly known as call center agent. At first it was fun, though it made me rethink that decision later because the work was overly demanding and I hardly have enough sleep.

A friend of mine suggested I set up a profile in getafreelancers.com and odesk.com and apply for job offers there. I kept applying for available work vacancy every week. I grew weary and got very bored applying over and over for various work related to my expertise but I was in dire need of money so I kept going. It took about a month before some buyer really noticed my existence.

I became a virtual assistant in odesk.com. The job entails internet research, MS Excel and MS Word familiarity and literacy. I did it for about 1 month or so and was successful. The buyer invited me to work for him full time and assist him in various type of work. And that is how I landed in my first full time job online.

You can do the same. "Patience is a virtue" and "Hard work will pay off."

Good Luck!

How to add EON in your paypal account

Making your Paypal account verified is a fairly easy thing to do. Once you receive your EON card, just follow the steps I specify:

1 - EON accounts take about a week to be activated (that is based on my experience) which means you can deposit to that account but you will not be able to withdraw. The first thing that I did was deposit an amount of 500php in my account. However, when I try to add the card in my Paypal account, I got a message of error. By deduction, the card still cannot be added to the account because it has not been activated by the issuing bank.

2 - I waited a week before I tried to add the card in my Paypal account. I was successful in doing so and obviously it is because obviously my card/account is now activated.

3 - The next thing on the list would be verification. Once you successfully added a card to your Paypal account, it is not the end of the story yet because you are still bound by Paypal limitation. To lift this limitation, you need to verify the account by using the EXPUSE number.

4 - Go to EON online banking and log in to your account. It takes about also a week that you will see that your initial deposit (for mine is 500 php) was deducted an approximate amount of 80 php. Do not worry, this fee will be refunded once you verified your Paypal account.

5 - Next go to the transaction history. From there you will see a list of transaction specifically the last 10 transactions you have made using your account. You will know your EXPUSE number by looking at the transaction list. It will have a transaction description like this: VISA-1234PAYPAL--*EXPUSE SG(840)... The EXPUSE number is a four digit number, by deduction 840 is not your EXPUSE number. From my example, you can see the number before the PAYPAL word which is 1234 is actually your EXPUSE number. Copy this and go to your Paypal account.

6 - Once you are logged in to your Paypal account, follow the link that says verify your account which can be found in your to-do list. You will be prompted to enter your EXPUSE number. Hit enter/confirm (refer to Paypal) and that's it. You will then see that your account has been verified.

It takes a lot of patience before you really can set up your verified Paypal account. For you who are eager to start your online marketing, remember to stretch your patience.

If you got any questions please do not hesitate to contact me. Good Luck!